The Injections

May 24, 2013
Phase II has officially begun and in full force!

I now begin every morning with four types of injections lined up on the counter, reviewing my list over and over again making sure I haven't forgotten something. As I push each needle into my belly and release the medicine I try to envision the follicles growing, but inevitably I end up holding my breathe and getting dizzy. Afterwords I review my war wounds, sometimes I hit a vein, sometimes I get a bruise and most of the time it welts up a little and then subsides within an hour. I am starting to get anxiety in the morning as I run out of injection spots. My stomach has developed hard spots from all the injections.

Added to the injections I take oral medications morning and evening and just hope that I can handle any side effects that come my way. Emotional effects are by far the worst.Yesterday I cried looking at two little babies on the airplane. I can't explain why, but sometimes just looking at cute babies is enough to send me into a brief emotional tail spin. The hard part is wondering if we will be so lucky to experience the joy of holding our own baby and taking her/him on an airplane. The little things.

We are in the stim phase for up to 2.5 weeks. I will get an ultrasound and blood work every couple of days for monitoring to make sure everything is going smoothly. If all works out, we will be able to have the eggs extracted in a couple of weeks!! We are very excited about every phase of this process and getting closer to the day when we can say "We are Pregnant!"

We want to extend a special thank you to our friends and families that are supporting us through this emotional roller coaster. We kept it a secret for awhile and only recently let people know about our IVF journey and are very thankful that we did! There is no better feeling than having support from the ones that you love. For this we are truly blessed.

So far in this journey we have learned to be patient, thoughtful and most importantly hopeful. Life gains a whole new perspective when you are fighting for something so important that your mind, body and finances don't matter anymore. All that matters is the end. The end is worth fighting for.